That distant melody

I heard there was a hurricane coming, so I went to the rocks by the sea.
The angry spirits of the water break themselves there, and the display is spectacular.
You watch the white water smash itself into a thousand pieces on black boulders which are stained from the thousands of waves that have broken before it.
But as the wave breaks, the thousands of pieces just flail helplessly through the air, unsure of what comes next and they all fall together back to earth to become whole again.
They are never satisfied.
Even after the hurricane passes, you can still hear the spirits early in the morning punishing themselves for a never ending crime, trying to appease the moon spirit.
And still the white moon won't forgive them.

Hoping for the best.

So I finally got around to posting today. I've been feeling very sick lately and I'm not too sure why... just really tired 24/7... and I slept all day yesterday. I hope I don't have some horrible disease or something... but it could just be me... again.

So in my last post I was excited about getting a special something... and I got it! I am now a proud owner of a PS3! It came very cheap and included the uber HD cord (you know, for that uber HD TV I'll get someday...) and came with about 9 games! So after trading in all the sports / racing / useless shooters (Rainbow Six Las Vegas... I'm looking at you!) I was able to afford some games I'd prefer to waste my life playing.

I got my hands on BlazBlue, the little brother of Guilty Gear (a series I am quite fond of for it's music and gameplay). BlazBlue is much smoother than Guilty Gear, but as always... I feel it is missing just a small part of what Guilty Gear had. Maybe I miss the "RIDU TEH LIGHTUNING!" or the silly stories about characters who's names come from rock bands for no apparent reason other than because it's Japan. The music is pretty good too. I especially like Noel, a dual gunner. Her theme is also one of my favorites!

So apart from BB I've been mostly doing FFXI with my bro again. We finally completed the new mission set "A Crystalline Prophecy" which got us some cool body armor. And now my summons are more powerful than ever and it's time to go for some more legendarily rare armor to make me EVEN MORE POWERFUL! MUAHAHAHA! (or at least my avatars will be stronger...)

Great news recently: FFXIV info is flying all over the place! They've even got gameplay videos just added today. I've been following www.ffxivcore.com for some time now, and they haven't disappointed me yet! It looks very sexy and I'm super excited!

So apart from the escapism that is corrupting my life ever more, I've been working a bit more than usual lately... and I'm getting tired of it! Come on school! Where are you!? But it's mostly just because some people left recently and the other shift is being given shifts at other stores... so I get to fill in on those days I would have off. At least the pay check is there in the end.

I'm almost at my goal of saving for school in the fall! I think I need about 2 more weeks of pay and then I'll have reached my goal... with more to spare! That surprises me... considering my spending habits have been off lately... but I guess I haven't been THAT bad (... well the PS3 was kind of a slip but it was worth it damn it!). In the end, if I can afford school that's all that matters.

And school is so close! I can't wait to be back and start the old routine again. Maybe I'll actually get to sleep! I've been having terrible nightmares again. After I came back from camping... ugh... I could feel the depression crawling up my legs, up my spine, and grab my head and start pushing down on me like and invisible weight. It doesn't help that I've been feeling sick lately. Maybe the two are tied together?

I was going to do some Chara unblocking... but I never got the book I needed. Maybe I'll start when school starts... pffffffffff yeah right. When school starts I can almost guaranty a better attitude all together. At least that's all I can hope for.

The Final Countdown!

I'm back from my vacation in New Hampshire and I feel... tan! It was a lot of fun. We did a lot of active sports and outdoorsy things like kayaking, biking, hiking, swimming, and of course DnD... OK so that wasn't much of a sport but we did wait until after dark to start 90% of our games. The air was so clean that when you first enter New Hampshire you can almost smell a difference. It was very beautiful on Lake Ossipee (the lake we camped on). It is one of my favorite places of all time and this trip reminded me how important it is to me! I hadn't gone in at least 3+ years and now I need more!

Although I wouldn't want to live there... too many hill billy people. We stopped in a Rite Aid on one of the days we were there and it was like someone picked them up off the local farm and gave them Rite Aid vests! I mean, even their outfits were so poor that I would probably be fired for attempting their farm-hand-worn look. I guess it is just a local thing. It is in the middle of nowhere. The funny part was when I asked for him to plug in my discount and he got all suspicious on me... like I had stolen someone's identity! Oh well. At least I don't have to work there.

It is almost 6AM and I haven't gotten much sleep. Probably the main reason being I have to work this morning at around 9AM... ugh... and I'm still hurting from the drive/unpacking process (which is still not finished). I hope my Jeep had some miracle preformed on it so now it stops making the funny noises it's been making. The big suburban is making funny noises too now so maybe both cars will get done at the same time before school starts.

And I forgot to mention that I am wide awake as well because I have been in contact with someone on Craiglist.com about a certain item that I've been dying to get my hands on... and I'm getting it at a HUGE bargain... so if things don't work out I can always sell it for even more profit. I'll let you know if it all goes down.

And OH MY GOSH! AUGUST IS LITERALLY ALMOST OVER! I was talking to my friend on the phone and he was like "Yeah, school starts on August 24th for me..." and I was like "I wonder when that is on the calendar..." and sure enough I was shocked to see it so close! I was like "OH MY GOSH! AUGUST IS LITERALLY ALMOST OVER!"

So goodbye summer! The final countdown has begun!