Moleskin Fragment - Epitaph to [Ethan]

July 22, 2008

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That is a tale which stems back to when [Ethan] started his road to asshol-ism... or maybe he always was an asshole and we either chose to ignore it or he did a good job of trying to to be one or a combo of everything [inbetween]. There was always something about [Ethan] I liked. If I had to guess, it would be his willingness to do anything to be social. I think it stems from his childhood and lack of social life until we met him (from what I understand or was told). He was diagnosed with [a] sort of mental disorder at an early age [and from what I gathered it was] because of his constant swearing. I think South Park helped a lot with that. In school [,] I remember first meeting him and befriending him. For whatever reason I would [often] befriend the most insecure people in High School. I always felt that I helped a lot of people grow and develop because of me, but that's that the kind of thinking that gets me into trouble. [Ethan] always made me laugh. We were almost always at par with each other in most video games. I miss him a lot. He really was a great friend sometimes. The last time I saw him was in Staples one day. I was excited at first [because I hadn't seen him for about a year]... then, as if I was an amnesiatic, it slowly dawned on me that we just never talked things out. As I left Staples I realized how much I missed him. But I couldn't go back. Not again.

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As I reread the moleskin, I wonder why I didn't spend enough time on those who deserved it.