I've been away for a long time because I've been fighting depression and trying my best to move on with things... but of course the universe has to play with me a little longer.
I found out yesterday morning that a close family friend of mine, Kim Vanderlann, committed suicide this past Friday. She was the mother of two kids I've spent a lot of time with and we were close. She leaves behind her children and her husband with whom she was separated with. I hadn't seen her for about a year and only saw her briefly at my father's funeral and talked with her for a few minutes a couple of weeks ago when I was with the kids.
So now the wake is Tuesday and the funeral Friday. My brain is in lock down mode officially. I tried hard with my father's passing to keep the turtle out of his shell, but this time I can't stop it. I don't want to talk about it.
So now I am taking another hiatus? I don't know. I'm very sad and when you're sad it is hard to write. And even when I do write it comes out to be more sadness. Why spread that?
We will see what mental state I'm in after these next few events and then I'll figure things out.
I need an extended vacation :-( can I book one of those?
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