It's only here when you are

What is happening to me...

I won't ever be the same...

I've lost my metaphysical virginity...

And now there is no going back...

But I don't mind it here on the other side of the fence...

I can sit here with them...

I can listen to them...

And suddenly it doesn't seem so bad...

Not that what is happening to me at this moment is bad...

But the thoughts of being alone...

They are breaking...

I am on the thin ice now...

It is cracking...

And I want to jump...

And shatter the glassy surface...

And plunge into the depths of...

God.