Self-Examination Terminated

There is no need for it now. I have decided that, if I were to pick myself apart, I would discover that I am made up of many things. And you know what? They are all way to dynamic to look at individually. It would take my whole life and then some afterlife time to finish most of it. Ofcourse there are some things that will never change about me. Those are the things that have impacted me so deeply that, for better or worst, they will always come back to haunt me. It doesn't bother me as much anymore since I've come to this conclusion. It isn't me just "pushing it off" or shoving it into a corner for later. I am who I am. I am a predictable, dynamic, selfish, selfless, beautiful, ugly, self-loathing, appreciative, religious, faithless, true, false, unknowledgable, creative, understanding, one sided, accepting, rejecting, carefree, burdened, reminiscent, foreseeing, present, feeling, thoughtless and thoughtful, know what I want and don't want, know what I'll try and won't try, know my limits... and don't know them sometimes, not a drunk, not a druggie, high-on-life (believe me, it's got good parts), don't need anyone except the handful I've chosen, I am a seer, a teacher, a divine, a prophet, a mediator, a sacrifice, a rightious, a demon, a worm (sometimes), a virus, an epidemic, a thought, a poison uncured, a potent elixir, a short arm, a strong-will, a lazy ass, a procrastinator, a day-dreamer, a believer, a non-believer, an unconvincing, self-rightous anti-hero who just wants to be himself. And thats what I'm doing. Because I realize now that if I didn't like who I was, then that is not who I would be trying to be. I don't hate myself. I hate some things I do. I hate looking at those things very much. I hate what I've done to people and myself sometimes. But you know what? At least I'm not a phony. There are too many phonies in this world. I don't like 'em. So to all of you phonis out there, "I am who I am. Why can't you just be who you are?" And if they don't know the answer to that... then I say forget everything and just do what you do, feel what you feel, be what you want as long as it's real. Don't look up to others if you are trying to find yourself. They aren't you. You are you. And I must say, I'm kinda cute.